Up to this very moment that I'm writing about this, my realization just won't sink in my mind, as well as in my heart. Since that very day that everything seemed to have slowed down like forever, I was subconsciously bearing a thought- more like a HOPE. A hope that when this race ends, everything will go back to the way they were. But no.. "Time and space doesn't exist. Only the combination of both."- A. Einstein. And we, we travel through this combination. So there's no turning back, no U turn. Only memories of what we've seen on our way as we move forward remains. And such a fool of us to be attached to these mere images our minds create. Then I'm one of US.
I keep on thinking everyday, every second, every breath I take that.. after I'm done with this 4-year struggle, we'll be together again. Close to each other again. Seeing each other again. Make noise like the old times. Shout and laugh and joke and cry. Then embrace each other in times of trouble. But no.. NOT. That cannot happen again. No more. We've got to continue moving forward in our own directions, destinations. Though we can be together again, but not like before. This idea, this very thought.. I just can't accept it.
But maybe, just maybe reminiscing the past is enough. Yet I must leave it behind and face the present. I'm at the present. And I'm heading to the future..with those memories.
(dedicated to HS friends)
