How was your first year? Mine was...

Things have never been good since the day college life dawned. Like any other incoming freshmen, I have had my own set of expectations of my new school and the new people I'm going to meet. I was actually very excited and proud to be called an ****ean. Considering that my school bears such a, let's say, GREAT name, I've set such high expectancy towards it. But things just don't happen the way you NEED and WANT them to be.

May 27-29, 2009- Orientation Seminar of Incoming Freshmen

This was the first time I've seen my new blockmates, the first time I've set foot on the Gymnasium, the first time I actually felt completely abandoned by my high hopes and dreams and expectations. Pure loneliness filled my heart before I suddenly realized I was alone all the time. (Alone- nobody was sitting on either sides of the chair I was sitting)

PARA AKONG BINAGSAKAN NG LANGIT AT LUPA.

I suddenly felt the urge to quit, to go away from the place, to escape, for i knew nothing good will happen in my stay there. NOTHING. The future has been predicted. My future suddenly became VAGUE.


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But then I thought maybe I should give it a try.
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So classes started.. And again, I've been turned down by my expectations regarding my classmates. I can't blame myself if I got used to being with extra smart but witty people for the past 10 school years of my life. Gaaah! And I can't blame myself for expecting so much from a school considered as ELITE by the name. HOW CAN SUCH SCHOOL ADMIT STUDENTS who can't even read continuously straight english, or even construct a grammatically correct SIMPLE sentence? HOW!? HOW CAN"T THEY ANALYZE a question that requires not the slightest effort to get the logic of it?

Days and months went by, everyday living has become monotonous..Monotonous in a way that there wasn't much activities being held and if ever there are, non of them gets my attention and interest- same as well with the things my teachers are trying to inject in my brain. NOTHING NEW. Some teachers, particularlly the PE teachers are requiring students to do this and that things that aren't related to the subject in equivalent to a 15 or 30 item quiz! It's just so clear that they all don't have the sweat to discuss and teach the students with the lessons needed. AIR-HEADED FOOLS. Worst is, they still have the guts to grade us with an INCOMPLETE grade for they don't really recognize the face (not even the name) of the students they're teaching!

As of the school facilities, they're not that convenient for the use of the students. From the gate all the way to the school buildings, the pavement full of craters (yeah i call it craters) and cracks that when it rains, small pools surround the university. Aside from that, during rainy days people can't walk in the school since both the street and the ateneo compound is filled with muddy water. Parang mini UST lang. All wifi connections in the buildings and laboratories are password secured. The 3-story library is like a gigantic oven that students barely drop by two use it's facilities. The school canteen sells tasteless solid rock breads and sandwiches and overpriced meals. Charging in the cafe costs Php200. Tables, walls and chair are filled with errotic vandals and gramatically wrong statements.Comfort rooms cleanliness is not maintained. Despite the costly tuition that we pay and the TFI, ONLINE PRE-ENLISTMENT, ENROLLMENT and ONLINE Grade Viewing system is dysfunctional for almost 4 semesters already. Yeah. and we pay for it every semester. Seems like something fishy is going on there.

Of all the other sister schools in the Philippines, we are the only one that has a school uniform. Well it's quite convenient in a way but the design just ain't convenient for us at all. All colleges in the university wears only one type of uniform. No differences, no distiction among others. Just plane lame uniform. Aside from that, we girls look like sales ladies in a drug store with the color cream as a blouse and navy blue slacks/skirts. :|

First day of classes in the school always start as Wednesday! Yes, so untimely.. And they even schedule it 2 weeks earlier that other universities. It's as if we're a trimestral university and it's just so completely ODD, LAME, STUPID and all the other nega adjectives I can think of.
TALO KO PA MGA HIGH SCHOOL STUDENTS.I really wished I should've enrolled in Bicol University instead. At least all the situations happening in that school are quite reasonable.

The mentioned rants above is what I carry everyday both in my heart and in my head. My soul has become frail. I don't believe what one or another says about that place. All I know, and I'm sure of is that, that place is the nothing worthy of appraisal, of anything good and awesome. The stories I've heard ain't true. They're all lies.

I've tried to tell all of these to my mom but she won't believe me. She still stands firm in her own belief of that place. And i can't alter it anymore. I was destined to stay in that place until the very last spark of my so-called hope dies. So unfortunate of me. So lonely. So sad.

I'll just have to wait, and wait, and wait.. or rather.. give up to my greatest dream that has now become a living nightmare. No light, no escape. Only darkness, only hatred.

How was your first year? Mine was...terrible.

Maybe you'd ask "Why won't look on the brighter side?"
Well tell me which is the bright part of that?